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Post by Lily on Sept 26, 2009 19:39:52 GMT -8
I feel so unbelievably depressed all of a sudden. I just really want to cry. The funny thing is that I have no idea what caused this dejected mood swing...I guess I've been sort of like this for a while now however...The internet doesn't convey some emotions so well. Do you think I'm depressed? I feel fatigued, and my body aches and just most of the time I'm so mopey I can't stand myself. All I do is sit on the computer and shop online. I haven't been outside for any considerable length of time in days.
*sigh*
I don't want to bring down the mood around here, but I just felt like I had to get this off my chest. I've said a couple things in the past couple of days that I didn't like. I think it's because of my attitude. Being like this makes me so angry...it's hard to be my normal cheery self. Optimism is a hard thing to keep up when aggravated.
Sorry, everyone. For anything I might say, or already have said.
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Post by Del on Sept 26, 2009 19:54:56 GMT -8
I haven't noticed anything different. It's hard to pick up on that over the internet.
You could be depressed. I often hear of people having aches in their body or being sore while in depression. Is there something that has caused this? Like a break up or death in the family/friends?
I experienced my first 'relationship' last year. The guy I wasn't really interested in me, but I fell pretty hard for him. He started avoiding me after awhile, but I'm not an easy person to ignore lol. I made it worse for myself, I suppose, but I don't like to sit around and wonder why someone that I care for isn't speaking to me.
Anyway, I experienced something very similar the following months after we broke up. I didn't have a drive to do anything. My attendance to classes were shot to hell, and I never wanted to hang out with anyone. I felt sore a lot, and I was pretty emotional. Things made me mad, sad, or annoyed really easily.
And it wore off after awhile. Once I was more removed from the problem it became a lot easier. I had to see him almost everyday for about a month afterward.
I think you just need to try and relax. Maybe get a massage. The most important part is to keep positive as impossible as that may seem. Surround yourself with friends even if you don't want to. I'm sure it wouldn't hurt to talk to a doctor as well. But I don't want you to have to start taking pills for something that can be solved through better means.
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Post by Gabby on Sept 26, 2009 20:22:01 GMT -8
I can definitely relate.
I felt this way for a good portion of my summer vacation. Apart from failure to obtain a job, and that my mother constantly blamed me for not looking hard enough, I just felt... useless most of the time. I didn't hang out with many people, I slept a lot (though with unhealthy patterns). I felt like I could do nothing that would amount to anything. I just sat in my room, staring at a computer screen, doing nothing at all productive. I was incredibly sensitive and irritable; I would snap at anyone about anything. I was not a great person to be around. I couldn't stand being around myself.
I guess depression is a collective disorder... it's usually an accumulation of things that make us feel that way. What really helped me was college. And it turns out that the prospect of college was one of those things making me so depressed. I wasn't optimistic about it whatsoever. But as soon as I got out of the house, away from the chaotic family mess, and into some independence, I am much, much happier.
I can't say that college will exactly help you lol, but definitely find a different atmosphere and dive into it. Take a trip. Your environment is what is more than likely doing this to you. At least, that was my problem.
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Post by Cameron on Sept 26, 2009 20:23:55 GMT -8
Sounds like depression. Been there, done that. You got all the symptoms. Do what they said.
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Post by Del on Sept 26, 2009 20:24:04 GMT -8
I 100% agree with Gabby!
I was in the same position during the summer.
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Post by turkoizdog on Sept 27, 2009 14:35:00 GMT -8
Exactly. You have the symptoms, so as Del said, relax. Find what works for you, cuz the same things don't work for everyone. Some people need to get immersed into stuff and people, others need to be left alone. Although you probably no longer feel like doing much anymore (one of the symptoms), do things that get you going. Exercise, massage... meditation > medication... sometimes just getting more fresh air, getting out more, and getting more sun can do it. If you can think of something specific that's getting you to feel this way, find a way to make that thing at least muted if you can't make it go away. Listen to feel-good music, comedy movies... it could be stress, or just that so much is happening at once. I've had it for a good period of time a few years ago. Creative outlets work too, like piano, writing and drawing... Hope you start feeling up and better soon.
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Post by Lily on Sept 27, 2009 15:01:29 GMT -8
I feel much better today. Thanks for the support, guys.
Had a martini, and played the piano naked.
DID A WORLD OF GOOD.
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Post by turkoizdog on Sept 27, 2009 16:00:10 GMT -8
Pianos solve everything.
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Post by Cameron on Sept 27, 2009 18:45:31 GMT -8
being naked in front of cameron lawrence is said to make you never be sad ever again
try it sometime (now)
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Post by Lily on Sept 27, 2009 18:49:53 GMT -8
Well never being sad again is a very tempting thing.
BUT WHAT WOULD THE NEIGHBORS SAY, DEAREST
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Post by Cameron on Sept 27, 2009 19:32:39 GMT -8
fuck the neighbors
you are naked in front of me
this is awesome
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Post by Del on Sept 27, 2009 19:33:38 GMT -8
I think being naked in general makes people happy.
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Post by turkoizdog on Sept 27, 2009 19:51:29 GMT -8
My neighbors are all really old people, so no thanks. :/ Also, I thought you two were married? What has the world come to when married people make rules to remain clothed around each other... (And yes I realize that the ending punctuation of those sentences should be switched to be grammatically correct)
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